Randomness

I know these are probably stupid, but I took one of those personality test things that tells you like what careers you would be good for because I’m pretty much having a quarter life crisis right now and I’m really not happy with what I’m doing with my life. Buuut what I got from that career wise wasn’t really all that moving or surprising, but the description of my personality …dead on, except for adopting other people’s beliefs. But yeah, it’s really sad to me. I don’t want to be this way.

“INFJ’s are strongly driven to help others. These are serious students and workers who really want to contribute. They make good therapists, and ministers. 1% of the total population.

The agreeable nature and quiet personality of INFJ’s makes them particularly vulnerable to hurt feelings. Distress within close relationships can shatter the INFJ. Like all NFs under stress, INFJ’s feel fragmented and lost — as if they are acting out a part rather than simply being themselves. This disassociation can be related to physical symptoms for the INFJ, whether real or imagined. Feeling split off from their physical natures, INFJ’s may become virtually immobilized by repressed feelings. 

Although INFJ’s may feel like remaining still and stationary until the chaos and confusion of a stressful situation dissipates, it would be best for them to actively sort out their needs from others. Being excessively cooperative and agreeable, the INFJ has a tendency to adopt values and beliefs of others as their own. When external conflicts grow, so does the INFJ’s sense of personal disharmony. Disassociating themselves from others takes a great deal of effort for the INFJ.”

I haven’t really felt like myself lately …things have not been too great.

It’s puppy day! I want a puppy….

I’ve been having a really hard time talking to people lately …like having a hard time carrying on conversations. It’s like I get nervous every time I talk to someone and can’t think of anything to say. I don’t know what’s going on. I just feel strange.

I have a really hard time hiding when I’m upset. I want more than anything to just go home and lay in my bed the rest of the day. Just sitting here at work is taking so much emotional effort. I wish I didn’t let my insecurities get the best of me.

Whenever something feels too good to be true then it probably is.